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My therapist told me to write about my imperfections

Updated: Nov 10, 2023

I was questioning myself, and what I have to offer the world, and my therapist told me to write about all the ways I’m imperfect. I am not sure if this writing prompt is helpful or a really bad idea. Either way, here is part of what I wrote:


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I am apologizing for my stretch marks, as if they’re the worst thing about me


But


The worst thing about me is that I felt the need to apologize for my stretch marks

Marking my fixation on appearance

Adherence to the rules that say taut and smooth is beautiful


What’s worse, is the worst thing about me is that I am always apologizing…apologizing for what?


For my existence


Walking around saying sorry - sorry - sorry


Sorry for my delay


Sorry I am in your way


Sorry to bother you


Sorry if this doesn’t make sense


Sorry I was deathly ill and could not respond to your email


Sorry for my body and the space it takes up


The worst thing about me is that I want you to be free

Free in my cage

Waging my wars of jealousy and insecurity and control


The worst thing about me is my double standard

Standing in the doorway,

Running away, but

Making you stay


The worst thing about me is that I think my way is the best way

Weighing you down with MY definition of good and wild and free


Free


There’s that word again


How can I even be free when the worst thing about me is me?



A woman in nature viewing the Matterhorn

XO,

Teresa


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